back to reality

Well, we are home from a wonderful amazing vacation. This is probably the first time Ive gone on vaca and wasn't ready to leave by day 4... I'm such a work-a-holic, usually i'm excited to get back early.... This time, I got to enjoy every minute... Maybe because this is my first "paid" vacation... you know? I didn't lose any money by being gone so i didn't have to worry about it. I got to hang out with Jay all week... I never get sick of him... (well, rarely). I just love him.

So.. the timeshare.
We knew going into the presentation that it was going to be difficult to say no... and our salespeople didn't help either... I'm so excited that we get to go back to sunset and travel now. it's going to be AWESOME.... But Ill admit, it wasnt something we were ready for. and I'm so nervous. I know however all this winds up it's going to be okay.... and Im really trying to learn and be calm and not freak out.... I'm just scared.
Its probably not what we thought it was going to be. we knew that. but i hope it works out to be a great thing for our family. i know it will.

NOW we have the condo next door forclosed and up for auction. timing= terrible.
BUT if we buy it, fix it, pay the HOA's and rent it...
lets see... say we pay $35000 for the condo (spend money updating it) and 140000 for ours... we can sell BOTH in a couple years for 100k each (at least) and have enough money to move into a bigger house.

so much work to find a tennant and fix a place up... especially before the holidays. so much responsibility..

what if we cant find a tennant, and have monster timeshare payments? ontop of our mortgage... and italy... and hawaii....

so much to think about... so so much... im back to not sleeping because i keep wondering about the money... about sunset beach... and the condo... and babies...

Lord give our family wisdom, clarity, and peace of mind.