I feel like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff. The sun is shining, and the few clouds in the sky are only decoration... It must be sunset because the sky has a regal glow.... I'm barefoot... there's dirt in between my toes and I'm just staring out into the world... Out, far away, and back down bellow.....
I'm not contempating anthing horrible... I'm just observing....and then I decide to sit, with my barefeet dangling off the edge like a little kid... And I think to myself that it's so strange that I'm not afraid... I can't see the bottom of whatever's underneath me, but I'm not worried about it...
A warm breeze... a deep breathe...
The orange glowing horizon.... that's all....
I just wish I could fly....
Don't worry.. I snapped out of it... my daydream.... vision... i don't know. This dazed feeling just wont leave me alone.... Some days are worse than others, but it's always here now. What happened to me? What put me in this funk and WHEN will it ever be over....
I want to be alone... but i hate being lonely... I'm not ever hungry, but i always am... Im always tired but i cant seem to sleep for more than a couple hours.
Im a walking contradiction... messing up everything. shoes in the freezer and locking myself out of my computer....
why?
i dont want to fight anything or overcome anything. im way too tired for anything like that... i just want to get my head out of this fog....
...not badly enough, i don't guess.... that's why it's still here.
of course it is. :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okAQ-aRTBAY&feature=player_embedded
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