Everybody dies.
the drug dealer who wrecked my family for years died... drowned in a lake... "accidentally"....
and I learned how important forgiveness is for me... not the other person....
But Rob... Rob was a good man. He was kind and worked hard. He loved his sweet mother. He was thoughtful. He was young.
He didnt deserve to die... Not like Dorian did.
but he did....
because everyone dies, whether they deserve it or not...
and it sucks.
This cloud I'm stuck in just wont go away. I wish today of all days that I had a book to dive into. A closet to hide in... A road to drive down and keep going and going...
I keep telling myself I'll get a handle on things. This job is wearing me so thin.... I'm in a period where I don't love what I do, I love what will come from what I'm doing know.... make sense?
That's what's driving me.
So, in conclusion, I'm being driven into the ground by my job. I want to hit my head on the ground because of my problem child employee. I want to eat dirt while I scream when I think about Rob dying.
I feel queezy and hungry and light headed and tired and i just want to be happy again.
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