unreasonable.

I feel angry. I feel frustrated. I feel whiny and needy. I want to fight. I want to lay it all out on the table... I feel like i'm being eaten on the inside. I feel like my skin is crawling.

I know I'm crazy. I'm ambitious and hard working...

sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you work. It never matters how successful you are.
relationships are the only things that really matter.

I have very few that I cherish..... and several more that I'm vainly still pretending work like they used to.

I have to accept the fact that my husband and I are grown ups. We live in Atlanta.

being friends with people who still act like they're in college wont work. they've got friends where they are... so they don't need to invest in an almost long distance relationship. what's in it for them, right?

maybe if we rented another boat, we'd have friends again....

Every day I connect with people on a professional level. why can't i do that with friends? how come i can't find anyone in the city of atlanta to just have a meal with and listen to music?

I just feel really abandoned. I know jeremy feels that way too... and it's so frustrating.... i guess sometimes people do grow apart.... but i don't think any of us have....

I'm not too busy being married. I'm not too busy working. I'm not too far way. I'm not too tired.

but you still wont be there for me like you used to...

so in conclusion. I am lonely, and I am also terribly unreasonable for thinking all of these things.