here goes nothing.

It's easily been a good 5 years since I've blogged. So let's try this thing again.
I mean, I don't have to introduce myself... I don't have to tell you anything about myself. I can just think... and type... right? Because that's what I need.. Someone (thing) to just talk to. Lately I've been working so hard. All the time. And I miss Jay so much... and I'm pushing him away. But I need him so much. I need him to help me through this transition. I'm doing all of this for him- for us and our life and our family. for our travelling. so we can be comfortable.

And when I get challenged and ripped to pieces and fall short and then I'm stuck alone... I just forget that this job is a dream job and it's a blessing that I'm greatful for.

Like I said, I need help with the transition.

... All that said, yesterday turned out wonderful. My boss was right. she always is. that's why she's the badass, but im glad she wasnt there to peer over my shoulder the whole time. Mag did very well and we really connected. Low stress. for once. Today it'll be good to report back to the boss that she did well.
... and then she'll give me some new crazy goal that ill have to meet in an unrealistic amount of time. awesome.

blog, you will be good for me again.